The Kat McKenzie Saga.

As most of you know, I am a musician, and release under the family name of Kat McKenzie. A few weeks ago, I started receiving strange emails.

It all started, quite harmlessly, with puppies..


Oct 27 2009
Puppies!

Hi Kathleen,

It was nice visiting with you. Attached is a copy of our health guarantee and puppy deposit form. I will write you down now for the deposit so you have first choice for a male out of Isabella and Razz. I will send you pictures of Isabella and Razz in another email.... and if I have some pictures.. of their past puppies grown. I will try and get one taken of the girl I kept in their last years litter. She is a doll!

Thanks,

Cindy

(followed by details of Kathleen McKenzie's address in Santa Fe, New Mexico..)

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Oct 28 2009
Re: Puppies!

Hello Cindy

I have received your emails - unfortunately I think she must have mis-typed her email address to you, as this is Kat McKenzie in Edinburgh, Scotland.

You may wish to get back in touch with her and clarify! I would love a puppy but I'm unfortunately not on the right continent!

Thanks

Kat

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Nov 17 2009
Your order with Amazon.com

1"Creature Comforts: Cozy Knits for Wee Ones"
Amy Bahrt; Hardcover; $16.47

Sold by: Amazon.com, LLC
2"Baby Beanies: Happy Hats to Knit for Little Heads"
Amanda Keeys; Paperback; $11.53

Sold by: Amazon.com, LLC
1"Coton De Tulear (Kennel Club Dog Breed Series)"
Wolfgang Knorr; Hardcover; $16.47

1"Sherpa Legacy Ultimate Pet Bag - Medium"
Misc.; $65.00

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Huh. So I guess she got the puppy. Of course I then received all the shipping emails as each item went out. But then I kinda forgot about it for a few days. Until today..

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Nov 23 2009
We Want Your Feedback! (Order #....)

La Canadienne Elsie Boots (For Women)
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Arctica Down Vest (For Women)
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Arctica Down Vest (For Women)
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Terramar Long Underwear Top - EC2 Silk, Long Sleeve (For Women)
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Is it cold in New Mexico? It must be getting cold.

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Nov 23 2009
RE: We Want Your Feedback!

Hi there

Not sure if you can help. Someone named Kathleen McKenzie has been ordering an awful lot of things lately, and putting my email address in, which is obviously incorrect! I live in the UK, in Scotland, and it appears from Amazon emails that she lives in Nevada, USA. I'm not sure if you have any other contact details for her, but if there is any way you can let her know, that would be great.

I will keep trying through the other orders as well! she's probably just a letter off on the email address..?

Thanks

Kat

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Nov 23 2009
Re: RE: We Want Your Feedback!

Dear Kat,

Thank you for your inquiry.

We have removed your email address from our database. We do apologize for any inconvenience. If we may be of further assistance please don't hesitate to contact us.

Thank you for contacting Sierra Trading Post. We appreciate your business.

Jennifer, STP

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Uhh. Not quite the answer I was hoping for..

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Nov 23 2009
RE: Re: Puppies!

Hi Cindy

My apologies for contacting you again, but is there any way you can contact Ms Kathleen McKenzie? I have received a number of emails from companies such as Amazon and Sierra Trading Post regarding orders she has made, supplying my email address. If you have another way of getting in touch with her, that would be greatly appreciated.

Please ask her to double-check her gmail email address, as katmckenzie@gmail.com belongs to me here in Scotland, and I'd hate her to miss out on order information, etc, because of it.

The orders also email me with her full address, etc, but I will discard these as soon as I have forwarded them on to her. If you have a phone number for her, would you mind letting her know and asking her for an alternate (or the correct) email address so I can forward on her order confirmations, etc?

Thanks a lot if you can help.

Kat

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And now? we wait.

Grit on the streets.

There's grit on the streets. The council (or some kindly citizen) has gritted the sidewalks so that we don't slip over on our way to work. The cars in our street are frosted over, and our neighbours scrape at them, frustrated.

My hat has too many gaps in the knitting and I am pondering an early 'hat-with-ear-flaps' purchase. That or earmuffs and mittens. Like a real winter!

Dave makes soup and plays video games in his robe. I end up in the bedroom earlier than usual as it's usually the warmest room, and besides, I can get into bed.

The light is still there in the mornings, but gone by 4.30ish. The sky is a deep, deep pitch black when I walk home. It feels like 9pm and my body feels confused. I am even more sluggish than usual.

Depression is close, but not creeping in yet. I long for music. My keyboard is timed to be purchased in December on the first eve of.. Hannukah. Or I can consider it early Christmas, a very late necessity. I'll have had 7 months, 19 days without touching a key, playing a piece, writing a song. The longest stretch in 18 years. I have lost my hands and my voice and my songs are wandering around my head and smacking into my skull, waiting to be released. I'm almost too scared to hum. I feel on standby; my heart in my throat until I can free them properly. They might run away if not able to bounce off of (fabricated) ivories, lost in a mess of song sheets.

I am ingrained here. Things are changing around me, the trees have lost their leaves, the bed is too warm in the mornings to leave it.

I am lost and I am found. I am rumpled and dazed. I am loved and in love.

Winter is here.